There is a need to be very active, intentional and very receptive and open. Both are essential. What reconciles these, what enables these to be genuine?
Seeing our nothingness. Having remorse, understanding that our aim is humility. Not knowing.
Not knowing can bring about openness. Engaging without an expected outcome, being willing to be wrong. Ultimately to open to Conscience within.
Our ego gets in the way of everything. For some folks, this manifests as avoidance, hiding, feeling inadequate.
And of course it’s opposite. I want everyone to know about my high experience, or I have always something to teach everyone, or to show my great understanding of the work, etc.
Self-importance, egoism, pride, can manifest in wildly different ways. Can we manifest from a place that is real, less separate, less hiding or showing me. This is where the reconciling force comes in, has to come in.
If you feel not up to snuff at times, down, there is the blessing of being nothing. Transform that by letting go of the negative side of it and seeing the favor of it. Self-pity, feeling sorry for oneself, depressed at oneself and all of that, keeps us from connecting to a deeper reality that is a gift. For all of us, be nothing and be ok. As stated, our most difficult emotions can sometimes be our most profound teachers.
We can come to a non-interfering attentiveness.
Coming to meetings on a regular basis enables.